Probably the last post of the year but well....... Hello December!

And so...... I just turned 23 two days ago and I have a lot to be grateful and thankful for for the past year too that I decided to come back and do a post. It's been too long till my english gets horrid day by day, I can't even........ Hahaha but anyway.... not to show off nor boast about anything but for me to reflect and think about stuff; the people who have always been around supporting me, the little things that life has offered to me the past yr and etc, and also something for me to read back in future to remind myself of who I was and where I've been when I come back and re-read my posts :> One year may not seem very long but MANY THINGS can change for all of us during this period of time. Well, at least it did for me.

I used to think birthdays were really nothing special about but just any other day, ever since I've started working life -_- I honestly can't even remember what I did the past few years except my 16th birthday but the past few days made me realise that birthdays are that time of the year to reflect on where I've been, who I've become and also who are the people around me who are there for me that never left and that I'm never alone. That there are wonderful beings out there who genuinely care and love me, who actually want to celebrate this special day with me even with me not wanting anything and stuff cause I'm just that lazy to celebrate my own birthday :\ I'm so thankful and appreciative for my family and friends that have stuck by me through the good and the bad. And thanks so much for all your sweet surprises and gifts. They no doubt make me feel so special and fuzzy inside too hehe. Okay this post is getting too cheesy, I shall end off here now!

Signing off with lots of love <3>

Polling day a.k.a. OFF DAY

Hiiiiii~ it has been FOREVER since I last updated this space omg, I forgot that my blog even still exists until I found it under my laptop's bookmarked list, haha. Maybe I should start reviving it again, would be kinda nice to look back on my life and see how much I've changed? Haha.

Am now sitting by my balcony watching the man downstairs clean the pool before I go and swim!!! It has been about..... 5 months already I think since I last swam. I used to swim 2-3 times a week? :\ whatever happened to that or keeping fit? Yep, I've been lazy. Haha feeling old, tired AND lazy. Just wanna nua in bed all day if I could.

Updates on my boring/inactive life (not like anybody cares)

Work : Tedious, stress, but slowly getting where I want to be
Family : Stepmom's having a baby!!!!!! :O Still don't know the baby's sex yet. Kinda hoping I'll have a baby brother :p
Friends : Same ol same ol
Love & Relationships : What is this?

Hope the haze subsides soon, can feel it getting to my throat.

Who will save me from myself?

If there's one thing I realised about myself it would be that I tend to run away from my own problems and I just get stuck when it happens. I always try my best to be strong and face it, but sometimes its just so hard I don't know what to do. I feel lost, I feel like shutting down, don't feel like talking to anybody and be alone. I could talk about it to people and hear what they have to say but..... I don't. I don't have a habit of telling people what's troubling me, I don't know how to anyway. I'd think hey, they won't really understand or I probably already know the answer/s sometimes but I just..... don't know how to face it I guess. Nights like these make me feel lost. Am I overthinking so much? Or maybe I have been watching too much shows......

Note to self;

4 out of 5

Been on MC for the past 4 days now after extracting my wisdom teeth last Thurs. Feels good to just stay home and chill and not worry about anything at all after being super tied down from work for the past few months. Feels almost like a holiday treat for myself, haha. But nah ah, don't think I'd wanna put myself through that painful ordeal all over again... :\

Come to think of it, its been awhile since I last used my brain to think hard about stuff. The important stuff of course. I've been putting off / dragging quite a bit of things I wanna do, which clearly hasn't been done up till now. Instead I end up sitting here writing about it, thinking about it, but not really doing anything about it. I'm a #1 procrastinator. I need to stop being so lazy!

And I really need to learn to stop spending money on things that I don't need. Especially clothes. My cupboard is bursting. Stop it, Kelly.

TGIF and happy birthday, Al!

I kinda hate posting photos in my posts now because it just gets uploaded everywhere in different formats and layout I can't even........... maybe its just me who suck at doing websites.
So it was one of my dear girl's 23rd birthday two days ago. Sure time has past really fast, knew her since I was in primary school, now look at where we are, haha. Hope you enjoyed yourself though my cheeburngirl! Dinner was goooooood~ I can never have enough of pastas, I could eat em' every day.

Monday thoughts

So 2015 is here~ seems like the month of January is gonna pass quickly too. I don't know if I'm getting better or merely drifting... But I do know I am not the same person I was a month ago and I am unrecognizable from who I was a year ago. I don't know why but nothing good ever seems to stay. When you finally realize that nothing is permanent in this life, you will become more tolerant, more forgiving and less judgemental. Here's to saying goodbye to all the negativity which ate me up in 2014. I will become a better me for the benefit of myself and others. I'm just honoured that I can still radiate joy in other people's lives.. So cheers to a new year!

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Don't set yourself on fire to keep others warm.