Wednesday, December 24

Merry X'mas Eve

While everyone is outside celebrating christmas eve in some sort of way, here I am at my balcony listening to music and watching planes/ships go by with my dog and a cup of juice. It doesn't feel like christmas is here one bit or maybe I'm just a spoiler for festive moods, haha.

Come to think of it, 2014 is gonna come to an end soon…. I wouldn't say that a lot has happened to me throughout this year itself (apart from failed relationships and hopping jobs), but I feel myself growing up I guess. Pfffffffftttttt wtf am I saying, like duh I am growing haha. Leaving school since mid 2013 and coming out to the working world has taught me a few things. Along the way my perspective of things change, being exposed in the aviation industry also taught me how to adapt well in any kind of situation, how scary people can be too hahaha - ok let's just skip that part, my responsibilities - be it at work, or as the oldest daughter in my family, or even a friend, it slowly adds on. I guess I'm quite happy with where I am now, at 22. At the very least, I enjoy what I'm doing and I don't dread going to work (except for the waking up early part). I know my loved ones want the best for me but just sometimes I hate being forced to do things I don't want to do. I think I need to know when to be firm as well and not waiver at the thought of other people's words sometimes. Its really hard for me but I do try.

I can't think of what else to say except that 2014 has been a shitty year for me. I think more shitty than 2013 honestly. So much for 'TO A BETTER YEAR AHEAD!" Okay I should just stop being so blue about life right now and yes on a brighter note, I am grateful for the people who've been there and stayed with me throughout my shitty moments without judging me, haha. Thank you, I love you.

If you admire the rainbow after the rain, why not love again after the pain? 

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