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Just last friday night I met up with Al and her friends for clubbing. We went to two clubs in fact; Attica and Zouk. Initially I was quite reluctant to go because.... 1. I was feeling rather tired and unwell, 2. I didn't want to be reminded of the times I went clubbing last year + all the unhappy bullshit that happened, and 3. I didn't exactly have that clubbing feel. I honestly just felt like dying and sleeping at home but since I hadn't met up with my bestest girl nor unwind with her for such a long time, I decided to just go along and enjoy myself :>
We had a pretty great night except for the part where I started puking like a merlion with a on/off switch :\ Felt horrible after each time I puked, and never have I puked after drinking. Guess there's always a first time to everything but I'm sure I'll never drink till this state again, omg. Just dancing will do for me! ^.^

Schooooooool hmm...... what bout school? I think my attendance is getting worst, with facis chasing me to come to class but on the bright side, I'm left with only 3 more weeks of school IN RP, like finally! Can't wait for school to be out for the holidays and look forward to korea trip with my course mates in mid sep :>
Internship starts on 1st Oct. Feeling 50:50 about it but am sure not looking forward to travelling to TUAS every morning for the next 16 weeks, le sigh. And FYP faster end. After this coming Sat, we can kiss it goodbye. Another burden off our shoulders.

Chanced upon this on tumblr: "I pretend that I'm happy everyday. I feel alone all the time. I touch the stars with my mind. I worry when I don't think I'm good enough. I cry when I'm confused, frustrated and .... I am shy and courageous".
I don't know why but when I read this, I pretty much could relate to this cause it kinda sounds like me :\
Sometimes when I feel like when I let people in, they destroy me (emotionally), I don't know. Or I trust people too much to not let me down nor hurt me? I shouldn't give all of my heart away right? But is it wrong? :\ Love is sweet when its new. But its sweeter when it's true. Agree?

Sometimes I think the human heart is just like a simple shelf. There's only so much we can take and pile onto it before something falls off the edge and we are left to pick up the pieces.

Diet WILL start tomorrow!

Not to be nor look like one of those attention seeking girls worrying about their looks or weight the entire time but I have been getting fatter really (as compared to last time) and that just makes me feel really fat, y'know. Especially on my tummy and arms, omg. All my fatty fats there so need to go!
So instead of just sitting around looking at tumblr photos of hot mods and bods feeling like a total fat ass and complaining about how fat I feel, I've decided to go on a healthy diet and exercise more often, starting this week! :> I can't wait to feel healthy and lighter all over again, hehe ;)
BYE BYE junk food and sweet drinks!

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Expectations will always lead to disappointment >

It's sad how one day I'll seem to have everything going right then the next day I'll lose everything so fast.

Our story's told, it's time for goodbye.

Hold on to something good and don't let it go

No matter how tough things would get between us in future, I do hope we are both strong enough to overcome it all. I will only fight for someone I see myself a future with and that is you J <3 I will love you like planting seeds on you every day, taking care and showering you with love and watching you grow :> hehe. I love you.

July

Hi, it has probably been a week or two since I last updated again. I used to be able to do quality posts quite often on my blog, followed by posting pics of my day cause I was just too lazy to type out about my day and now, I'm just lazy altogether and use Tumblr instead cause it's easier and more interesting, haha.
Time flies and its July already. Going mid-July somemore. Am counting down the days till I can finally say goodbye forever to studying in RP = bye powerpoints, bye microsoft word & excel, bye presentations, bye weird people and yea, the list goes on............
So much has happened of late, both the good and the bad. It's just crazy how much your life can change (somewhat) within such a short period of time or should I say in less than a month? Life just flashes by so quickly without us actually realizing it and in a matter of days or maybe even seconds or hours, something could change. Be it a decision made or a word spoken from someone that hits you, which could probably change your life at one point or another or maybe even forever, I don't know. For example, you could be best friends with someone today and be enemies tomorrow. You could have had the best day in your life today and then the worst tomorrow. Life sucks. Why can't anything good just stay? Or at least I've realized that the good or best things in life don't last long/forever. So we'd have to treasure that particular time we have and live in that moment while it lasts, right? Sigh..
So many thoughts in my mind, I just don't know how to pen it all down nor find the right ways to say and describe it.