Finally!

Yes hi. Weird start but yeah, it has been forever since I updated my blog! Shan't exactly update about my holiday in detail but pictures are up on my Facebook so if you'd like to take a look, just go to my albums there :) I miss my mum and everyone else in Chiangmai already ever since I returned back to sg. #2homesick much? I even wished I needn't have to come back. Life there was much peaceful and carefree. I didn't exactly celebrate x'mas or countdown to the new year's either but seems like many others had fun celebrating it or at least looked forward to 2011. Well, I didn't. It's the 3rd day of 2011 and it still feels the same, or worst? & what's up with new year resolutions? I think they're kinda dumb cuz I haven't come acrossed anyone who has stuck by it for the rest of the entire year. It probably won't even last anyone a month or they'd eventually forgot they made or even had one :\ Weather sucks for the past few days as well. It's either really HOT or raining like cats and dogs. (I sound so angsty, hahaha) I was supposed to return to school today but I skipped it cuz I REALLY have no mood for class today. I doubt it has anything to do with me PMS-ing, I just have been feeling really lousy and moodless for the past few days/week. Haven't really contacted or updated anyone since I returned to sg, even if I did, I didn't continue with the conversations even though I said I'd get back to em [ sorry :( ] It's like my mind's going into a 'shut everyone out' mode during this period of time which I never intended to do on purpose nor even know why exactly I'm feeling like that. Never exactly felt this way before and it sucks really. I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling now but I'd like to be alone for now. I'm probably one of the saddest ppl in the world till I even had suicidal thoughts earlier but yeah, that's just plain stupid I know. Even when I eat, I can just start tearing and crying, especially when I hear my mum's voice and knowing that she's not here. This month is probably a bad month for me and I really hope it'd be over soon, this ew aegesunbsgvsdf feeling I have inside of me. I want to be happy, just like everyone else who are. I just want to be a good daughter, sister and a friend. There's nothing else I'd ask for more as I already have wonderful people by my side who'd stand by me through anything even when I'd feel so alone. Ok I think I've rant enough. Gotta get myself an m.c for today's class. Toodles~