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Pretty much how I felt since I woke up this morning with a high fever and fed shit by somebody.

Conversation between me & that shitaeioghvjasnrhutiodkgvesomebody;
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(some broken conversations in between)
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Me: We're already 19 this year J, we're no longer 13. Can't we just talk about this, properly?
You: Why can't I just have a normal life?
Me: I too want my normal life back, I said it from the very beginning that I don't wanna be part of your life anymore........(ranting)......After all that has happened, I can't pretend nothing happened & continue being friends with you, I can't. So go, have your normal life back. I'm out. Like I said, when you get your heart splattered all over and you're feeling really down and lonely, don't run to me to pull you back up because for the first time in your life, I won't be there. And I won't.....
You: Don't be a bitch lah ):
(Me? A bitch? Seriously? Fuck you! Have you even SEEN/MET REAL bitches?!!!) -- No I didn't reply this but hell yea fuck you alright......
Me: I'm not! You're so mean you know that! You always never consider about other ppl's feelings, especially not mine! You only care about how you'd feel and just yours alone!
You: Ok la lets have sex first.
Me: GO AWAY.
You: Please? ;)
Me: You don't deserve anybody, especially not me.

That was it.

What the fuck happened to you?

I saved your ass for this class bbq. If not, it wouldn't even have happened.
You booked the wrong pits for the wrong month and ppl were already on their way. I dragged you along with me to the nearest axn machine even when you didn't want to to book another pit which was wayyyyyy out of where we were supposed to be and defended you even when people said 'why you so blur' and all. You didn't even say thank you.

This was our last outing together. I rmb it was a few days before English 'O's began. I failed in persuading you to come back and do your 'O's even after trying to knock so much sense into your head. You don't know how much your Dad talked to me regarding you, he was so worried for you but you never knew nor understood. I failed your Dad, I don't know how to face him. I'm sorry Uncle.

Here's us going to school together at Chec even when I haven't exactly started classes yet. Regardless of whether it had anything to do with me or not, I was always there for you assuring you that you'd be okay no matter what.

You were pretty much part of me already.
7 years, we practically watched each other grow.

& this is me saying my final last wishes to you; grow up. And goodbye.