tired tired tired

I just did my rj and realised that I never used to write so short nor be uninterested about writing it. I kinda liked the idea about doing a reflective journal every day. Well, that's if the questions aren't dumb. Like today's Chemistry class for example. The question for our rj was, "How can I apply or use some of the knowledge or skills I have gained?" Sounds fine right. Then I asked myself whether it had to do with today's class. But if it wasn't something to do with today's class, then why ask? And if it really was something to do with today's class, what am I supposed to write really? We learnt about the many different types of molecular geometries, properties, bonds, bond angles, and a lot more confusing stuff. How do we actually apply that to our daily lives? I don't see myself applying any of it. So I wrote a really really short rj, like 5-6 lines. It was bull. Anyway, tomorrow I'm gonna be meeting my Programme Chairman (DMTS). I'm scared and nervous but I have to do this. I'm drained. The only time I actually talk and be happy is when I'm in school. I'm as good as a mute when I reach home or am at home. I'm not on talking terms with anyone in my family for the past 2-3 days. I have done nothing wrong. Pointing of fingers, blaming and accusing is all they can do. I don't even wanna talk about it. I'll update more tomorrow. Goodnight.