"I don't hate life, but I don't love it anymore"

This was taken at the Esplanade

My Dad

Becky, our mega-fatso Chihuahua


It's about 4am now and I'm still up. I wouldn't be able to sleep if I didn't blog today, idk why haha. I got back not too long ago from bowling with my family and some uncles. I've achieved the highest score of my life today for bowling, which is 197! I know it sounds a bit off/ridiculous for an average bowler like me who usually scores around 130-140ish to suddenly play a game of 197. I do miss RP's bowling team and the trainings that we have together. It's like seeing every individual, and a friend, there who is so passionate about Bowling and that they wouldn't give it up no matter what kind of obstacles they faced. As for me, I had to face $$$ issues and also my Dad, whom I cannot go against if not I can say BYE BYE to my hands/head/idk/blah or something. Well, it's just something between me and my Dad that no one would ever understand so yeah, haha. But overall somewhere inside of me, I know I won't ever be able to give Bowling up and I wish that I could go back to training for it some day, playing it to the best of my abilities and get that satisfaction of playing (a good game) and also having fun all at the same time.

Okay, enough about Bowling. Today I was super annoyed/irritated by my soon-to-be step mum. I'm not biased in anyway, it's a fact. I don't know how my Dad is able to stand her. There's just too many stories to tell. It's like... he'd listen to EVERYTHING she says or do whatever she tells him to no matter how tiny or big that matter of issue is. Like pointing at a bottled drink and telling my Dad, "Dear, I want that one~" in that stupid ~tone~ of hers when she has TWO hands that are working perfectly fine to take the drink herself. Like c'mon, she's just standing infront of it! -drops jaw- I can't imagine living with her forever till I die, or she dies. Ah, the same.

I got my job scope yesterday sent by Miss Jas in an email. After I read it I was like whaaaaaaaaat, is this all that I'd be doing? HAHA! I think only Peggy will get what I mean. Now I understand why she doesn't know how to tell me, hahaha. I feel like a messenger a.k.a saving the environment person. Hahaha. Omg my eyes are droooopy now and I have yet to shower ever since I came home. So off I'll go now and get some goodnight's sleep. Toodles~

One more thing, FML!