I came in like a wrecking ball

I don't know what's up with my blog title for this post but yeah my emotions are pretty much screwed at this very moment. I feel wrecked through and through honestly till I don't know what to feel anymore, maybe nothing is good. Wish I could just have one full day to myself (free from work) and just sleep, take a nap, watch shows or do the things I actually enjoy doing without feeling so shit for awhile. I kinda feel like a robot now everyday. But I guess work is the only thing that keeps my mind off things for awhile.... I guess pain is what changes people.

Almost

“The saddest word in the whole wide world is the word almost.

He was almost in love.

She was almost good for him. 

He almost stopped her. 

She almost waited.
He almost lived. 

They almost made it.”

Why hello, September!

Didn't kickstart the month off very well as I fell ill, probably due to overworking myself for the past few weeks.. But nevertheless I'm feeling much better now after taking my meds. I can't help but wonder when I will ever be able to repay my hours finish in time for my Japan trip next month :\ guess I'll have to take it slow first..

I barely worked this week (only on Monday) and I can't wait for the weekends to come already.. Thinking about going to work just tires me, it tires my entire mind. Even when I sleep I do dream of work sometimes, gosh.. Haha.

I'm currently having a baddddd craving for sweet drinks right now but I can't have any cause of my throat, not even cold water!!!!! :< I want bubble tea….. or sugarcane… or maybe some juices :p

Am gonna cuddle and wrap myself up in my blanket now, good night!

100 truths

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Plain water :(

2. Last phone call: Alicia

3. Last text message: Sam

4. Last song you listened to: All of the stars - Ed Sheeran

5. Last time you cried: A few days ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: Like the same person but twice? Uh yes

7. Been cheated on: Yes

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: If that even counts, then yes

11. Been drunk and threw up: Threw up yes

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Pink

13. White

14. Red 

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2014)

15. Made a new friend: Yes

16. Fallen in love: Yes

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes

18. Met someone who changed you: Probably

19. Found out who your true friends were: Always knew ;)

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Nope

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Most of them

23. How many kids do you want?: 2?? haha

24. Do you have any pets: Becky, my fat chihuahua :p

25. Do you want to change your name: Nah

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Not much

27. what time did you wake up today: Early afternoon

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Resting in bed

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: THE WEEKENDS!!!

30. Last time you saw your mum: Uh...… just 2 wks ago?

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing

32. What are you listening to right now: Nothing

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing

35. Most visited webpage: Hmm.. Youtube?

36. Whats your real name: Kelly Ng Li Yin

37. Nicknames: kel, kelly belly, flower girl, sunflower :)

38. Relationship Status: Unavailable?

39. Zodiac sign: Saggitarius

40. Male or female?: Female

41. Primary School?: CHIJ Katong Primary

42. Secondary School?: CHIJ Katong Convent

43. High school/college?: City College & Republic Polytechnic

44. Hair colour: Black and brown

45. Long or short: ?

46. Height: 158cm

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Love someone?

48: What do you like about yourself? I always appear cheerful to others

49. Piercings: Ears, Navel

50. Tattoos: Nah

51. Righty or lefty: Lefty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: Nil

53. First piercing: Ears

54. First best friend: His name was Vincent HAHA

55. First sport you joined: Swimming

56. First vacation: Thailand?

58. First pair of trainers: I don't know

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating: Nothing

60. Drinking: Nothing

61. I'm about to: Check instagram

62. Listening to: Nothing

63. Waiting on: the world to change hahaha ok no.

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Yes

65. Get Married?: Yes

66. Career?: Be my own boss :)

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes

68. Hugs or kisses: Both

69. Shorter or taller: Taller

70. Older or Younger: Younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Any hahaha

73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive?

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Neither

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: In a dare game, super awkward

77. Drank hard liquor: A LIL bit

78. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope

79. Sex on first date: No

80. Broken someone's heart: Yes

82. Been arrested: No

83. Turned someone down: Yes

84. Cried when someone died: No one died yet

85. Fallen for a friend?: Yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: Sometimes

87. Miracles: Not really

88. Love at first sight: Maybe

89. Heaven: Not sure

90. Santa Claus: No

91. Kiss on the first date: Yea

92. Angels: Not sure

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: No

95. Did you sing today?: All the time

96. Ever cheated on somebody? No

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Back to when I was preparing for my O's

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Nil

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes..